Dear Zulay,
Here is your horoscope
for Sunday, May 22:

It's not your imagination. They're trying to manipulate you into doing what they want you to do, and if subtle tactics don't work, they'll try something more obvious. Better nip it in the bud.

He said, she said....

Summer session 1 is going to prove to be the true testament of being alone. Solitude is a fear I have more so because I don't want to be alone, much less die alone. I have alot of balance within me, were if I start thinking about the way i live, I end up thinking about my fatality too. On top of the feeling of loneliness, even if I wanted to not be alone, the events within the last 48 hours have took a toll on my trust again.

This time last week, I feared this feeling that I have. That feeling that you can be in a dorm full of people and still feel alone. It's common amoung this parts to feel this way, I've been told by many of those who have had to endure Summer in Syracuse. Fortunately or not, I'm done with people anyway. You try so hard to live a drama-free, and honest life, and yet somwhere along the line, you are faced with a decision that will make a or break ur relationship with people. I feel like every new person you let enter your life, another person in your life takes the risk of sharing your time, or worst of all, takes the risk of losing their place in ur life. Is it possible to have a fixed number of people in your life?

Why does it have to come down to, there's two people in my life, One says one thing, the other says something else. One of you is lying. One of you could be misunderstood, or one of you is just a simple idiot. I like the latter, but apply to both.

anyway u put it though, both of you aren't being honest with me. I never got why honesty is so hard to come by with people. I'm no saint, and I don't act like I never lie, but with matter of the heart and soul, I find that I can't lie. Omitting the truth is just as bad in this situation.

People in general are expecting too much out of me. So how about i just retreat for a bit? I'm sorry I cant ever find time to just do what I have to do to keep people happy. unfortunately, for a few years now people being happy with me has taken a backseat to me being happy with me. And I'm still not.

"If I never knew you, I'd have lived my whole life through... lost forever.... if I never knew you"
.. NOT

Have a nice day
-Zu

PAUSE ON THAT ONE!

Holy crickey!!!

I haven't updated in a minuto!!!!

Let's see... whats new?

I've experienced one too many downfalls with the men in my life.

I'm completely and utterly lost in the world.

My organization needs to handle itself.

I'm staying in SU until the end of June.

I'm trying to get my wonderful advisor to teach my how to drive! :-)

I'm still lost in the world btw.

Is it bad that sometimes, I feel like all i wanna do is have some kids and call it a day?
Will that scare some guys away? :-P

Will that freak my friends out for that matteR? Can you say "oh shit! Why'd u slap me!? I aint pregnant yet!!!" lol

I try heard... but I'm still pretty self centered....

But if your not self centered ... why would anyone else be ur center? FUCK EVERYONE ELSE.

Except J.C. aka God and his other names. You aiight :-)

K, i'm done...

FAREWELL.

Happy Bday just.
Happy Graduation Ray, Michelle and Morgan...

Can somebody please turn off the baby blue and white sign before I go bonkers? Thanks.

... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Time for a break

So for the past few days I've come down with a MUCH anticipated COLD. mo fuckas. Fortunately, I've been drinking so much OJ and vitamins that I don't actually feel faitgued in the morning. But that energery def. runs out sooner thatn later. It sucks. By like 5pm, i need a nap.

I'm going to look forward to this break. Something tells me that after this post is made, I shall be experiencing some real drama ... NYC here i come...

Hopefully after break things will be clearer.... UNLIKE THIS POST, lol.


paz,
overreacting zu...