After It All

As quickly as the wind blows
As fast as the sun comes and goes
The same as our laughter comes
The way our feeling flow
He is my favorite friend
The only one I cared to know
And all I am to him
Is a long time friend
who he has no reason to let go
Maybe his obligation to my dedication
overwhelms his heart
Maybe he realizes and understands my reason
For loving him right from the start
Or maybe he just hides his pity
for my loyalty for my protection
Even when we lose touch
We never treat each other different
Even when we think we've had enough
We meet others interest
Again
Even if I dont get what I want from him
All I have to lose is his indifference
He taught me to use sarcasm as a defense
A challenge to those with no common sense
You want a response to the jokes you make
I am the queen of sarcastic soul pinching
I return his favor and make him an offer
Giving him appeal, class and honor
For me, it seemed I could never be satisfied without a fight
So who better to test my appetite
It seems we were not meant to lead anywhere
Just a tutorial, just evens out our playing field
Why did u put me here
When all I wanted to be .. was there...